I'M ANGRY!!!!

have been in bad mood since late afternoon.. shall nt mention much.. coz the more i say, the more angry i am.. argh!!! stupid..

today my OIC was very busy, so didnt have time to come and look for me also.. haiz.. so i written him an email regarding my work. asking him to just help me thru email lo.. then i address him as mr ivan, but he replied back to tell me he too busy today and ask me to call him ivan is fine.. oh.. he is such a nice person..

oh.. morning munch munch on some shortcakes and drank green tea, afternoon as usual, went bedok central to eat with xuzhi and ruiping without xy coz she is on mc.. i ate qiu lian ban mian.

ps: gal, hope that you are fine =)

have been emailing cher for the whole afternoon... that is lk my source of entertainment.. so sad rite? haha no la.. cher is damn funny can.. =) and thanks ruiping for the hershey's dark chocolate. =)

oh.. and xuzhi.. hahaha.. he is so interesting la..

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

brought more barang barang

this time gt shortcakes, cup, cup cover, slippers

wah.. take off heels and wear only slippers is lk damn shiok la.. hahaha...

ate 1.80 nasi lemak.. sedap..

gt work to do le.. nt so bored liao.. now i noe boredom comes from no work. and today my LO came to visit as he had promised.. ah.. he so cute la can. i simply love him. though nv been taught by him, but when i see him, i so happy, lk my babysitter come. beside him, i feel so small.. haha.. i'm afterall under his protection. he so cute.

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

still hates office..

trying to get use to it...

brought my tissues and jacket

ate roast chicken rice.. =)

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

FIRST DAY OF WORK!!! i tot i was gonna be dead shit!

thank god! scs ppl are nice ppl.. but now only first day leh.. haha, duno if all is real.

then early morning got one bitch lk scared nt enuf time to drive off lk that, my grandpa only put me outside then she lk horn us lo, and diao us then raise her hand and trying to tell us we blocking the wat. i was lk "hello, u bitch, your car too big scared ppl dunno isit?"

then went in with visitor stickers. then waited for ruiping and xy. then tog went briefing. xy damn good la, no need go jurong and was also transfer to HR. NO CODING !!!

then i was brought to my office by the secretary, marilyn. was introduced to everyone..

brought to my seat. beside me was a lady called laura... she is nice and motherly.. haha.. showed me arnd to the pantry, toilet etc..

well, that's abt all for first day of work. =(

my target for IPP.. nt to get good grades but to finish eating all the food in bedok central.

i ate fried hokkien mee today =)

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

last day of fyp, we practically went crazy... =)

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

today is sports championship!!! i'm taking part in captain's ball..

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

nicholas(EI) just dropped by our lab. haha.. he ask me throw my purse coz it looks old and dirty.. lk whatever can.. so i said:

me:if i throw, are u gonna get me a new one?
him: no. i only ask u throw.
me: then i think shld throw u.
him: you wont lk that when i noe u a few yrs ago.
me: -.- *thinking* he noe me so long meh?..

stupid rite? haha.. =)

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

finished all the manga that i'm suppose to finish. so now currently reading this chinese novel that i have bought quite a while ago. =)


it's a touching story, is Mr Ichikawa Takuji's story too..

i'm so bored at lab.. rather than bored, i would say i have things to do but i'm nt doing. my mum is nt entertaining me coz she very busy and haven been able to reply my emails. so i'm damn bored and cant online shop too. =(

oh.. kami-sama, please make her very free soon.. or else i cant get anything,
and thank my lost sheep for helping me collect my stuff ltr. =)

ending fyp soon, gonna be alone to struggle outside.. will i die? most prob will.. =(

i really feel lk quiting IT asap. i'm getting so sick of doing the stuff in this lab. i wanna quickly go earn more and learn more so i can work towards my hana-ya(花屋) . cant wait man..

i think i'm stupid. but i dunno why that knowing i'm stupid and i still continue like this. i want to be nun after i retire or mayb if i cant find a bf by 25.. any billionaire wants me?!

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

BIG SURPRISE!!! i'm so excited now that i cant hold my feelings.. wahaha.. the author that i read his novel before, had movies out and i gt the novels.. damn nice la. author name is Ichikawa Takuji 市川拓司


this is called 恋爱写真, the original novel title, Renai Shashin. the movie, they rename it.
in movie, it's called tada, kimi wo aishiteru, english title is Heavenly Forest.
http://www.aishiteru.jp/index.html --> the webbie.. =)
review of novel, i give 4 STARS... wonder how good will the movie be.

prev movie from this author


new movie released from this author


arigatou.. atashi wa utate

today went japanese class then ok lo.. is revision for the exam then lk alot of hmk lo.. but no choice all also must finish.. =(

then went to kinokuniya to help chloe get her stuff and also to get my stuff.. haha, 2 mangas for chloe, 2 for me and i happen to be able to pick up my magazine.. spend abt nearly 40bucks there in less than half an hr.

then parted ways with kailing and realize that i still have some time left. so decided to join weisiong, liang qing, drew, therapist and rudra at nydc wheelock place. didnt eat la.. chatted with rudra, he is such a funny guy man.. interesting. =)

then were late setting off to azzy's place, coz mr anders wanted to get a prezzie for his fren 21st birthday. that took us some time. = sorry to make chloe and her bf, dennise wait so long. paisei sia.. then took a train down. mervyn and ppl left first coz if wait for us really very long la.. so bad to make them wait also.

then took a train down all the way to yishun then walk to her place.. her place quite far from station sia.. by the time we reached, alot of ppl le. even the juniors. then ate mee soto and chicken wing and potato.. all so nice! THANKS AZZY FOR INVITING!! =)) watch goong in her room. her room so pretty can.. haha.. and took alot of pictures..

then abt 5plus we went back. i went back with merv coz taking train wat. then i called my mum to accompany me dinner at J8.
me: can accompany me eat dinner when i reach J8?
she: dun wan. we eaten.
me: ask u accompany me eat nt ask u eat again
she: dun wan. u eat ltr la.
me: idiot.

wat sia.. so when i reach, i told my dad i wanna eat haagen dazs new york brownie. so he ask me go find seats first. so i went ahead after awhile, he joined me. he ordered banana split. so we happily ate our ice cream. until irritating bro and mum came.. dun wan eat but complain so much. too sweet la and etc.. too sweet then dun eat lo. i didnt force down ur mouth also.

then shop arnd, my dad bought bro new phone, i didnt get partly coz plan nt due and cant decide on which phone. haiz.. then before go back home, ate again. ate KFC coz i wanted the whipped potato.. so nice.. wanna eat again.. =)

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

new song! i changed saikou no kataomoi, i think it's been on my blog for abt a month le. =) below are lyrics for new song!

TV Anime [Busou Renkin] Ending Theme

Hoshi Akari(ホシアカリ)
Vocal: Jyukai

-romanji-
Nee akenai yoru nado nai to omoeta no wa
Itsudatte anata ga soko ni iru kara

“Doko ni mo ikanaide ne” tsuyoku omou keredo
Atashi wa anata he to nani wo shite agereta darou

Nagareboshi hitotsu mitsuketara negai kanau ka na
Ienakatta kotoba wo todokete kureru no ka na

“Arigatou.” Kokoro kara tsutaetai kono uta wo
Ima dakara kizuketa omoi ga koko ni aru kara
Yorikakaru sono kata mo karamaseta sono yubi mo
Bukiyou na atashi no ashimoto terashita HOSHIAKARI

Nee anata he atashi no koe wa kikoemasu ka?
Sono kokoro no oku he todoitemasu ka?

Nagareboshi hitotsu mitsuketa yo onaji sora no shita
Sono egao no shigusa wo mamori nukemasu you ni zutto…

Harewataru aozora ja mabushikute miotoshita HOSHIAKARI
Itoshiku omou hodo umaku ienai kedo
“Arigatou.” Kokoro kara tsutaetai kono uta wo
Ima dakara kizuketa omoi wa zutto wasurenai yo

-kanji-
ねぇ 明けない夜など無いと思えたのは
いつだってあなたが そこにいるから

「どこにも行かないでね」 強く想うけれど
あたしはあなたへと 何をしてあげれただろう

流れ星ひとつ見つけたら 願い叶うかな
言えなかった言葉を 届けてくれるのかな

「ありがとう。」 心から伝えたい この歌を
今だから気付けた想いが ここにあるから
寄りかかるその肩も からませたその指も
不器用なあたしの足元 照らした ホシアカリ

ねぇ あなたへあたしの声は聴こえますか?
その心の奥へ 届いてますか?

流れ星ひとつ見つけたよ 同じ空の下
その笑顔の仕草を 守りぬけますように ずっと・・・

晴れ渡る青空じゃ まぶしくて 見落とした ホシアカリ
愛しく想うほど うまく言えないけど
「ありがとう。」 心から伝えたい この歌を
今だから気付けた想いは ずっと忘れないよ

*english lyrics nt submitted yet

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

today is really a terrible day, vomitted and had stomachache this morning.. so terrible sia, i keep rolling on the bed.. but kinda nice to roll arnd =)
*analyse that i cant eat too much spicy food at nite la.. haiz.. sad-ed =(

reached school arnd 10am then ate at south, had prawn noodles, hot and soothing to my stomach...

then went chloe's lab to get some videos then bring over to watch but end up cannot watch.. so sianz.. went back lab, did some stuff... then went out to south again with keying and ppl.. joke and drew ate yong tau foo.. haha.. =)

my lost sheep look really lost and tired today. haha.. this lamp post nv do my work well. sorry =)

time check: 1649
i'm hungry again la.. =P CMI sia, i've been eating so much lo. gonna be fat again.. lost sheep ask me run a few more rounds lo. =(

feel that having boyfriends are just momentarily. sometimes u may hav the feel of want to be hugged, loved, pampered etc.. but then the feeling is nt lasting at all.. soon after having a guy, mayb might get tired of him always tog or hanging out. then to have a relationship is expensive la.. birthdays, valentine's day, xmas .. must buy presents la. if nt, will nt happy la.. haiz.. all the rubbish..
*sorry if i had offended anyone with boyfriends or are boyfriends. that is just how i feel. and also is my blog la =p

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

GUILTY!!!

i'm found guility!

anyways, today fida, huishan and cindy drop by at school.. haha.. it's been a long time since we last saw them.. they still look as great.. pretty ladies. =) miss them sOOo much..


eileen, nas, huishan, cher, cindy, fida, me, sabby

haha.. eileen calls it san dai tong tang(3 generations) =) sound lk very old..

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

happy birthday to huimin

morning came, to school was feeling abit gooey and wanna puke, thanks to nas for accompanying me go return overdue books and to cheers to buy smth sour to chew on.. feeling much better..

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

i'm sick today. bleah!

fever.flu.sore throat.cough

went to see doctor, he was trying to joke with me abt my fingernails. but i gt no strength to entertain him.. so sorry. =(

soOo ex to see him, all the med cost me 48bucks.. i gt so much med to eat. yuck! all BIG BIG pills. thinking of it makes me wanna puke already. =

i gt to lk eat them twice a day at least, 2 large pills of panadol, 2 large of antiboitics, 1 large of flu med and 1 spoonful of cough syrup.. ewwww.. i hate to eat medicine la.. and he gave me lozenges. it was blackcurrent flavor, tot that it shld taste nice, then end up, kena cheated, nt nice at all la..

ate the med last nite, was so disgusted and puke everything out. now as i'm typing, feel lk puking also! how?!

shall nt eat anymore..

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

Happy Birthday to My Mummy dearest
thanks for looking after me, wish u all the best in your coming year.. muacks, i love you!

sounds weird or disgusting?! haha. but is my mama so nvm and i noe she will be reading this.. wahahah.. =)

nt feeling very well today, had dinner with grandparent, mama, papa, bro.. total of 6 ppl, and papa ordered lk 6-7 dishes. where can finish sia.. but all my fave food infront of me yet i dun feel lk eating.. papa ordered, white pepper crab(my fave), cereal prawn(my fave too..), veg, sweet and sour pork ribs, braised sea cucumber, stir fried fish slices with spring onion and ginger.

argh!.. 美食当前，却不能吃，只能流口水.. sianz..

then went back, sang birthday song and cut cake.. haha.. very nice cake.. but i cant eat too. so sad-ed

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

already decided on which pair of papillio i shld get.. haha.. after many opinions from my frens and mum, i decided to get the white one!

today celebrated mama's birthday. just me and her only, coz i wanna celebrate separetely la.. then wanna bring her go buy smth that can hang on her thumbdrive but cannot tell her too openly ma.. so been trying to hide, we went crystal jade makan, 2ppl eat so much sia, we ordered a bowl of congee, 1 plate of fried noodles, 1 plate of scallop with beancurd and a plate of salad prawn. yums! so much dishes, end up both of us couldnt finish, cause most of the time we talking then all the wind go in le.. wahhaa.. =)

end up didnt get her the handphone chain also. coz dun have the color and design she want.. going on sun to see..

today actually also bought some stuff, bought a new book called Kira-Kira(means shining; glittering in japanese), bought my bro a gundam model(nt calvin buy that kind of small small one, is 1/100 hor..)

been watching honey and clover again, this time on vcd, coz i bought it on fri. just release.. wahaha.. =)

J8 there gt pasar malam, hahaha.. bought lots of food, nt really also la.. to be able to eat is good!

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

i want to buy soOo much stuffs(bought actually).. haha shall show u guys wat i want to buy, i've been shopping online for a week..


i adore the butterfly in the center.. and it give the natural and abit of classic feeling. =)


i think red is damn nice la.. =)

i couldnt decide which papillio to buy.. u all choose for me one that suits me la. then tag on my board. =) thanks


choice 1


choice 2


choice 3


choice 4 - but benita say mayb she wanna get this. =)

arigatou.. atashi wa utate

anger builds on hunger! anger overwhelms hunger!

this is wat i learn today.. freaking lecturers telling us there are visitors from 1130 -1230, yet none of the bloody visitors appear.. i wonder if wat xy say is true...

xy: mayb the visitors are invisible, they came and left..

argh! time check: 1347
I HAVEN EAT YET!!!

arigatou.. atashi wa utate