i feel empty.. no one actually understands me, some said that i'm too obsessed in anime and manga, but i dun think so, it's just another way of expressing myself. i've gt no one to really confide to. i just throw all my thots into anime and manga, a source for me to be occupied mentally, if only life was like that, if only i am able to do smth i like, if only one day i could find the someone to confide to.

pretty dumb to post this kinda of entry, but i just need a place to speak up, spill up everything that i've been bottling, i will go mad soon if i dun do smth abt it..

i wonder if i will be alone in old age, or a loner in the society, i feel so tired to interact with ppl, it's so tiring to be doing smth for the sake of doing it. there is nt satisfaction in it.. during this long break, i've sometimes been wandering arnd alone, with no company, coz i keep thinking of the extra things i have to pay attention to when i have company. a few times when keying ask me where am i, my ans always happen to be outside alone. i somehow want the quiet and wandering feeling for me to think and do things i wanna do, with ppl arnd, i cant seem to live as normal..

i'm tired.. i wanna stop everything.. if only i could.
kono nijyu nen kurai, zutto hitori desu, sabishiikute, kanashiikute, jishin mo nai. atashi ima nani mo shinjiteru.. onegai, jikan wo tomete

arigatou.. atashi wa utate